Please give a short bio of yourself for our readers.
I was born, February 8, 1979 in Toronto, Ontario. That makes me a Canadian
and an Aquarius. Some days I think those things are more important than
others. I grew up in a little town on the north shore of Nova Scotia. That
is where all my fondest childhood memories were made. We moved back to
Ontario when I was thirteen.
Now I'm twenty-two, still living at home, and going to the University of
Waterloo. I'm an English major in my third year, studying Rhetoric and
Professional Writing. I'm also in the co-op program, which means I alternate
four months of school with four months of work experience. During my time at
school, I've met some of the most beautiful, intelligent and entertaining
people I've ever had the pleasure to know.
Like anyone my age, I'm learning to accept who I am, not to stress about the
things I can't control, and most importantly, how to stand up for myself.
It's a bumpy ride sometimes, but I'm surviving, and in the end, that's what
counts. That, and having a little fun now and again.
Why did you choose this username?
I decided to use ramanda, (a nickname some of my friends at school had given
me) because it was simple and not already taken by the zillions of lucky
people who found Diaryland before I did. The origin of the nickname is a
long story involving some silliness, inside jokes and silent r's. It won't
make much sense or be funny to anyone else, which was why I was rather
dreading this particular question. Maybe I'll write an entry about that one
of these days. . .
Why do you keep a diary online?
Unlike most of the people who have diaries online, I never really kept a
journal before I started one here in Diaryland. I got the idea from Cosmic Amanda who I knew through a
mailing list we both used to be on. I started reading her diary in January
of 2001 and was quickly convinced it was something I needed to start doing.
As I read through her archives I saw how she had grown, I noticed the
patterns in her life and I learned from them, not just about Amanda, but
also about myself.
I was at a point in my own life where I was feeling lost, and I thought if I
had a place to record and archive my thoughts, that maybe I could start to
learn a little more about me. Maybe other people are learning from me too. I
hope they are.
Mostly, I'm an attention whore. Take a look around my diary, it's far from
subtle. I'm a diva and I'm all about showboating. It's nice to have an
audience, to know that I'm not just spilling these words out into a little
book where I'm locking them away. People are reading me. Some of them know
me, some don't, but either way we're all sharing and communicating and
learning and growing and yeah it's way cheesy, but I really have come to
care about the people I read. They know who they are.
How important do you think a layout is for a web-based diary? Would you also comment on yours?
Above I alluded to the fact that my layout is indicative of my personality.
It's big and maybe a bit clumsy, but it's cute and well organized and even
if you don't really like how it looks, it's easy to get along with. Wow. I
think the fact that I can compare myself to a web page layout is probably
indicative of the fact that I'm a pretty big geek too.
I think a layout is important because (for me) it makes or breaks the diary
experience. It's not just about the words, it's also about the pictures and
the colours and the ideas that those things bring to mind. I don't have an
issue with the Diaryland templates in particular, but none of them
represented me at all. I'm pretty worried about coming off as a snob here.
Especially since my layout needs some work. I think a good layout should
contribute to the experience of reading a diary, while not taking away from
the author's thoughts.
You mention a
"loss of innocence but a gain in experience" with Harmony & Mike. Elaborate
on who Harmony & Mike are, what they mean to you, and how they have
influenced your life.
Seeing myself quoted out of context that way automatically made me think
that maybe people read that and thought I had a threesome with them and it
changed my life. Ha! "A loss of innocence but a gain in experience." Does
that sentence even make sense? Anyway, I've known Harmony since the tenth
grade. Mike is her fianc�. They've been together since the ninth grade and
are getting married next fall. I'm gonna be a bridesmaid and I'm pretty
excited about that.
I've seen these two through a lot. They've taught me about love. Growing up
with them I learned that you don't have to be perfect for someone to fall in
love with you. You just have to be you and have faith in the right person
coming along at the right moment. That's a comforting thought for someone
who falls in love every five minutes, always with disastrous results.
As a Liberal Arts student, what object or event in your life speaks the
most to you and why?
I have no idea what object or event speaks to me most. They all speak to me
at once I suppose. Some pretty bad things have happened to me, but I don't
want to dwell on them. Some really awesome things have happened to me too,
but it seems silly to list them. This is already way too long as it is.
Music speaks to me, and books, people I meet, food I've eaten, things I've
seen. I know the pale magic that lies in cigarettes. I know the words to
songs I'll never forget. I know the faces of people who I've loved and
learned from. I know that the words I've read in books are now written on
the parchment of my brain.
I can't ever pick just one of anything. Maybe I'm greedy. Maybe it's a cop
out. Maybe that's not for me to decide. Maybe my whole life has been too
magic, too sad, too perfect and too beautiful all at once.
What part of college life have you enjoyed the most? The least? What
aspect of your learning has had the most impact in your life thus far?
University rocks. I know that I'll never have this much freedom, or this
many opportunities to experiment. This is going to make me sound like a
lame, drunken college student, but I think the best part of school has been
the social aspect. Not just because I like to go out and get trashed, but
because through partying, going on road trips, movie nights, dancing at the
alternative bar, and slacking off in the student union, I've gotten to know
some fantastic people.
The part I've enjoyed the least? The pressure. Moving every 4 months because
of co-op, having to deal with roommates, or with my parents, having to worry
about money, and work responsibilities, essay deadlines and job
applications. It's all very draining and it's hard sometimes to appreciate
the experience you're getting when you're exhausted and still have papers to
write and interviews to go to.
In fact, co-op has definitely the most impact. It turns your life upside
down. That being said, having real work experience has also given me a lot
of confidence in my abilities and in my future. I may not know yet what I
want to do when I grow up, but I'm trying different thingsn and that's a
start. As one of my favourite
songwriters says: "Small steps in the right direction are worth more
than a thousand big ones in the wrong."
What fruit would you be and why? =)
Mmmm fruit. I think I'm probably a pear. We'll say nothing of how my body
resembles a pear. Pears are easily bruised. They're not exotic, but they're
not totally common, like say, apples. They're sweet, and they go well with
other fruit (like in fruit salad). The taste of a pear is unmistakable. I'd
like to think I'm a lot like a pear, overly sensitive, yet charming, sweet
and unforgettable.